Thursday, January 13, 2011
Today I finished my requirements to be a plasma vampire! Whoo-hoo! Now I just have to wait for management to sign me in to my place. I think April is the soonest I can begin cross-training in other branches of the plasma center. I want to be a medical supervisor and put my EMT skills to good use.
I feel as though I'm in limbo in all aspects of my life. A soft, slow, comfortable limbo. Neither here nor there.
In between being a trainee and a useful employee.
In between schooling plans.
In between housing options.
In between child and adult lives.
In between being who I was and who I will become.
In between making big choices.
There are some very pronounced benefits to being in limbo. Namely, I can pick and choose which side of the balance I want to be from one day to the next. Sometimes I choose to be very much a child and other days I abhor the childish and choose to be an adult on all subjects.
That's the beauty of it all. The freedom is heady and addictive. But the situations are also constrictive and limiting. It's finding balance in the cacophony and learning to hear it as a symphony that makes this limbo so lovely. Every day is a once in a life-time opportunity to be a very specific something with no decision necessary until the moment in which it needs to exist.
Today I made a lot of mistakes
But I did more things right than wrong
I think that counts for something
Because I knew where I was all along